I have two children, a little boy (Tyler) born in 2007 and a little girl (Lisa) born 2011.
I'll start my story with my first baby. I was
told that he was too "big" to give normal birth to (which I realize
now, was a lie). He was only 3,5kg at 38 weeks. So I believed the lady
doctor that helped me and went with it, not knowing any better.
I had a planned C section and everything went smoothly until I tried to
breastfeed him. I had absolutely no help whatsoever, and knew nothing about breastfeeding. I never really gave it a second
thought and always assumed that it would be smooth sailing. Well, I struggled
to get him latched on, I thought that I was not producing enough milk and then started
pumping instead of breastfeeding, to see how much I was producing. Well,
it all went down hill from there! I went through depression because I
felt that I had failed him.
I really thought I didn’t
have enough milk, not knowing about colostrum; nobody explains these
things to you. I didn't know that I needed to have my baby physically at the breast
to stimulate breast milk production.
I gave up after about three months, thinking that I was less than a
woman and a bad mom. After that I wanted to know why I wasn’t able to
produce enough milk, but found no support online. This was the original
reason I started this site, but after all the research I did, I realized
that there was actually nothing wrong with me (that could not be remedied) and that I was just
lacking the info. I was determined to make breastfeeding work the second
time around, but at the back of my mind I still doubted that I could
I decided then that I would find
out as much as I could about breastfeeding. This website was started to help myself and other moms with breastfeeding problems.
So I did a lot of research and figured out where I had made my mistakes. I
loved learning about breastfeeding and loved being able to help other
I knew that I would be better off with a
natural birth, if I wanted the best chance at breastfeeding my second baby, so I
decided to have a Vback (vaginal birth after c-section) and I wanted a home water birth. I got what I wanted, without a doctor (none of the
doctors would support my decision to have a Vback). I found a wonderful
midwife and Doula, who were there for me at the end (unfortunately not
during my pregnancy). I went into labor two days early and when the
midwife got there I was already 9cm dilated. I was in labor for a total of six hours. I was very calm and it was the most peaceful, wonderful,
empowering experience of my life. The birth was completely natural, with no
I had absolutely no problems breastfeeding
her - I knew exactly what to do (because of the site and all the
research). I am still breastfeeding my little girl at 15 months and I am
loving it. (Update - It's now been over three years - Lisa breastfed until she was two).
I am currently studying through Child birth
Iiternational as a breastfeeding counselor and birth Doula. I would like
to help one mom at a time and make sure that
they get what they need and deserve, right through their pregnancies as well as afterwards.