Some mothers have found that it helps to keep themselves busy with a book or television whilst breastfeeding to distract themselves.
What is normal? Many women experience sexual pleasure from breastfeeding, this is due to the physical stimulation of the nipples. This is a common and physiologically normal response.
If you would like to breastfeed, but are struggling with any of these issues, due to past traumatic experiences, I suggest you see a psychologist who can help you deal better with your specific issues.
In the end, what really matters, is that your baby has a happy mommy. If breastfeeding means that you will be miserable, decide to rather give your baby donor breast milk or formula, if donor milk is not available.