Breastfeeding suddenly over
I was in a car accident about 4 months ago and since that day I haven't breastfed my baby of (now) 8months.
The Doctors and my family told me that if I was going to make a full recovery I needed to dry my milk up so that those calories would not be wasted during the healing process.
It was a hard thing to do but after a month I was finally dry.
I am still recovering but now the issue is not losing calories but rather that the pain meds I need would get into the breast milk if I relactate.
I have always had a heart for mothers who cannot produce enough milk and I used to donate to a milk bank... Now I can relate in a way I never thought I would.
It's the most horrible feeling. The worst part is that when I try to talk to anyone about it they don't seem to realize that losing our nursing relationship is such a painful thing even though I was able to nurse from the start.
I understand that I don't have it as bad as others but this still hurts. So I also feel guilty for being sad about it. I miss it so much. My baby doesn't even remember how to nurse or what my breasts are anymore.
I'm so sorry for people who have to go through this. It's so much worse than every injury I sustained in the accident.