Flat nipples & Large breasts
(Macomb, MI USA)
My first born is 7 years old. She was born at 35 weeks. Due to her prematurity, she was taken immediately to NICU after birth. She had been given a bottle with formula by the nurses before I had even seen her face!
Not willing to give up, I tried breastfeeding with no success for five weeks. I ended up pumping exclusively for six months with enough spare milk for another few months. I longed to breastfeed her and have that bond that breastfeeding mothers always talk about. Her pediatrician said that she was used to the bottle and probably would never take the breast due to her being given a bottle right after birth.
I took a breastfeeding class prior to the birth of my new baby girl. 10 weeks ago I delivered another baby girl at 37.5 weeks. I insisted that I put her to the breast right after birth. I was elated when she began to suck instinctively and felt that I would succeed this time around! But she wasn't latching on...she was only getting the very tip of my nipple.
I had been given a ton of support in the hospital by both lactation consultants and every nurse on each shift during my stay and one thing was for certain: my baby was not latching on properly.
It was determined that my nipples are flat (they were inverted at birth) and large; my baby's nose was literally covered by my breast tissue. I had to work hard to hold my nipple and areola pinched away from her nose so she could breathe. This of course, made my concerns grow into fears that I would fall asleep and suffocate her.
So here I am 10 weeks later, pumping every 3 to 4 hours and knowing I am missing out on what comes so easy for so many people...I feel depressed about it and angry, as I WANT to breastfeed and there are people who won't even try who I feel would be successful...
I wish there was help out there for people like me. :/