Seeking Advice on Getting Over Low-Supply Depression
I have been spending all of my free time and money trying to increase my supply, which has been slowly dwindling over the last three months.
I have seen over a dozen midwives, doctors, and lactation consultants who repeatedly told me "anyone can do this".
The professionals I have sought help from have all left me feeling like they see me as lazy and unloving because of my failure, I started seeing a therapist to try to deal with the stress, but she has also suggested that "there are other things I could try", and after learning that I was supplementing asked me twice in the same session, "you'll still breastfeed, right?".
As more time goes on, my daughter is less interested in breastfeeding (once out of ever 12 times I try, she will). My daughter is happy and healthy but all of this failure has made me feel like a shell of a person, and am having intense suicidal thoughts for the first time in my life.
The mental anguish is crushing me, I can't help feeling that my daughter would be better off with someone else who had the confidence to give up on increasing supply.
I'm afraid to seek help as the professionals I have been dealing with have only made me feel more alone, but I can't go on feeling this way. How can one get over the shame?