So glad I'm not alone
When I got pregnant I knew immediately I wanted to BF. I started reading everything I could get my hands on about BFeeding and attended BF classes at my hospital. When I brought him home I was under a LOT of stress because his father had walked out on us.
I was emotionally distraught. I think the baby sensed this too, and he would not take to the breast. I had a nurse come out to the house to ensure he was latching on correctly, and he was, but he'd suck for a few minutes, not get anything, and start screaming. When he started losing weight and was crying all the time from hunger, I finally gave up.
The nurse told me that I had to get some nutrition in him. When I fed him a bottle he sucked it down so eagerly, and went right to sleep. I still didn't want to give up on BFeeding so I tried to pump. After about an hour and a half I only had a little less than one ounce. I gave up but felt so guilty. What kind of mother couldn't feed their child? That was 16 years ago, and my son is healthy, but I still feel guilty that I wasn't able to BF him.